I can still see you feet!

Symphysis Pubis Dysfunction

Have you ever jumped into a pool that you thought was deep but wasn't and ended up hitting the bottom straight legged? If you have you know the sharp shocking pain that travels through your legs. That is what I would compare the pain I have been having in my crotch when I walk to. Not every step is all that bad. In fact, today it was pretty mild; but yesterday there were steps in which I thought I may drop to the floor. Unfortunately, yesterday was also the day that I was with Brady's family in Las Vegas. I felt like a major party kill. I was as slow as an elderly person and about as fun too. We had to get a taxi back to our car because I am such a handicap. They were really sweet and understanding. Pregnancy is so much fun!

People are starting to notice that I'm pregnant now. A lot of people were checking me out at the airport and I had my first stranger ask me when I was due in the airport bathroom. And its true what they say about everyone you know wanting to touch your stomach. Its like a pregnant belly is a magnet. It doesn't bother me as much as it bothers a lot of women I've talked to though. However, its just started and I've got about 4 months to go.

Bla Bla Bla

I have been totally depressed lately. I feel pretty awful most of the time. I don't know how I am going to get through the holidays where everyone is cheerful and I am supposed to be too. I swear that I feel lonely, but when I am around Brady everything appears so negative and I end up being mean to him. I feel like not leaving my bed ever again.
I don't really want to get on more antidepressants because Medicaid is not permanent and I don't want to deal with needing meds and med management and not having insurance.
I went to the OB today. I have lost 4 lbs? Since when, yesterday? I don't get all this weight loss/gain crap. I'm not going to worry about it. I am doing my best.
I now have pain in my left front-to-back crotch bone when I stand. It feels like I have been kicked and bruised there. Its been like that for about 2 weeks. They say its the cartilage loosening up to prepare for the baby to come through. It will probably only get worse until delivery. Oh Joy.
I feel bad that I am veing so negative, but thats just how I feel.

Ginormous!

I am not sure I want to keep growing. Pregnant bellies are starting to freak me out. I cannot bare to think of how large I am going to grow. I already can barely stand the sight of my big belly now. I've gained about 9 pounds in the last 5 weeks! But I guess that makes up for not gaining anything in the weeks before that. I'm right about at the average pregnancy weight gain for my 22 weeks now. But, hopefully I don't continue to grow at this rate. I'll take a pound a week max from now on thank you.

On another note, I feel the baby move daily. It feels weird. Kind of like big gas bubbles, but not in the usual gas spots and without the gas finding its way out.

I wish I were done already, or at least closer to being done. I know it will go fast, but I'm just not looking forward to the big uncomfortable phase. My friend Kelly is in her last month and she doesn't look like she's having fun. She doesn't even have regurgitation or reflux like I have. That lucky duck never even threw up. Hopefully I am rewarded for my ailments with a nice happy baby.

Ultrasound!

Today was the ultrasound and I loved it!!! I wanna do it again! Well except for the part where I had to drink 32 oz. of water and hold it till after the test. Our baby is sooooo cute! I can't wait to get her out and kiss her and squeeze her and love.... Did you catch that... She's a Girl!